Bleagh!

I really should be asleep, been on the net with my trusty Nokia 6500 Slide which I updated with Opera Mini 4.x, i say updated coz it came with 3.x but strangely that seemed to go all wonky where the menus would disappear into black blocks rendering useless, sort of like Windows 95 with IE3 and 100 IE windows open. So I downloaded opera mini, and its a hoot to use and was on it for hours doing useless stuff thats a waste of time. I've been melancholic for a couple of days, and the wintery weather wasn't helping much.

I should be asleep, I have an early morning flight to TGG tomorrow, but finding out your mother has a malignant brain tumor, despite chemo and radiotherapy, causing stroke like symptoms is the stuff that will keep you up at night. Its not fun, I'm just glad I always made time for her, I would pray for her to get better, but I haven't been on talking terms with God for a while and it seems bad to ask for something so selfish when there is war and famine and eco-degredation. You try to figure out what sort of divine retribution could be behind this, but it really is beyond our mere mortals, but that would be blaming God. I don't have an answer for this one. I dont have anything smart or funny or witty or even stupid to say. My dad is trying to create a sense of normalcy, which I'd rather just call denial. My sister (if you read this) get out of your self involvement and escapism and make some time.

Sure it will happen to everyone, everyone will go through this time, and for me the time is now, unfortunately its just all a bit Bleagh!